“Keep reaching higher until you get to your goal” ~ A very special post dedicated to my mom and a celebration of me.
Earlier in July, I quietly welcomed my 35th birthday, no frills, no big hurrah, only a celebration with my most treasured and loved ones. To be quite honest, leading up to it I actually feared turning 35, it means that I have officially moved up to the next age bracket (yes referencing SATC s4 ep.1). No matter how we try to tell ourselves that 30 is the new 20, our biological functions does not think so otherwise. We have to put in a little more effort to keep fit, to stay active, to fight the urge to turn on TV for the kids and hide in the kitchen with a glass of wine after a tough day at work (am I right fellow mommas?).
Speaking of work, I also felt especially vulnerable this year because earlier in the year I made the decision to temporarily put my career on hold and stay home to focus on spending time and taking care of my two precious little ones. It is the first time that I am not working since I have graduated college. I did the career mom thing after I had PA and it was fine because we had a full time nanny taking care of him. It was tough not to be with him, but I feel like when I get home, he is the center of my world, the focus of all my attentions. However, now with Miss K in the picture, I couldn’t just spend time with one over the other and I feel like I’m missing out on the biggest and most important job in my life, a mother.
I started this little blog hoping to store the moments captured as a family, but it became something more. It became my outlet for creativity, it became a communication tool for conversations with other women and moms who are trying to balance work and life, it became my drive to push myself and show my kids that even as a SAHM, I can still stay current, and be fabulous and not dwindling away living in yoga pants and sweat shirts everyday. Both PA and Miss K inspires me to be a better person, teaches me to be a better mom and I want to make them proud to have my as their mom.
I have said it before that I have come to term with my body that although at 35, it may not be what it used to be as in my twenties, I have proudly given birth naturally to two of the most lovable, kind, happy and amazing children. I am proud that this body went through all the trouble and pain of breastfeeding…twice to see that my kids grew heathy and strong. I have absolutely no regrets whatsoever about my decision to stay home because the time I get to spend with them cannot be bought with any money earned.
Originally I wanted to post this on my birthday, however after giving it some thoughts, I decided to save the post until today, on my mother’s birthday as she gave birth to me at the fabulous age to 35. She has been my best friend, my rock and my inspiration and I hope that PA and Miss K can see me as such and proudly shouts “That’s my Mommy”. Happy Birthday Mommy, you have always been so fabulous and you still are. Thank you for all of your unconditional love and I love you so so much!!
~ xo Sheree
Dress : : SheIn Spaghetti Strap Cross Back Maxi Dress (c/o)
Bracelet : : Coordinates Collection Open Air (10mm in gold and rose gold personalized to display PA and Miss K’s birth coordinates and date)
photo: Annie Bang